Sex in a pan!

If you dont know what "Sex in a pan" is.. you are missing out!... if you do.. then you know how incredibly delicious it is!!!

OK well first I should tell you...in isent literally..."Sex in a Pan.."... that might be quite difficult..lol.
It is a dessert!... One of the best Ive ever tried.. and just...mmmmm SO good!!

First Layer

• 9x13 pan 1 cup flour
• 1/2 cup margerine
• 1 cup ground almonds or chopped pecans, or what-not (1 package)
• Press in pan and bake for 20 minutes at 350 degrees to lightly brown

Second Layer

• 8 oz. Philli Cream Cheese
• Cream this
• Add 1 cup of icing sugar and mix well
• fold in 1/2 large contanier cool whip
• Spread over cooled base

Third Layer

• 1/2 cup milk
• 1 package instant vanilla pudding
• Beat with beater
• spread over second layer

Fourth Layer

• 1/2 cup milk
• Chocolate Pudding
• Beat and spread

Fifth Layer

• Spread remaining cool whip
• Add shaved chocolate (opt) 
This is SO SO SO good!! ... Another type of "Sex in a pan".. that i really enjoy as well (and its a little more simpler than this recipe) For the first layer. One package of your favorite named brand brownies (follow instructions on the box) Second layer Your favorite chocolate.pudding.. or may i suggest...OREO pudding!!! Third layer You favorite whipped cream..I suggest Cool Whip...or make your own!!! Crumble your favorite chocolate bar all over the top!!! ENJOY! 

TYSON...My Puppy!!!

My dog Tyson has changed my life. Ive always wanted a dog to myself. and I FINALLY got one.

                                                       Oct 2009 ... the day i got him!!!!



I was so happy the day i went to pick him up! I dont think i was ever so happy lol.
He was 7 weeks old when i got him, and he was SO tiny... and SO cute. ! When I brought him home, Lee says.."hehe , he looks funny"/// which he did.. he was kinda "goofy" looking. .. kinda slow..lol he kinda was.. But he was only 7 weeks!!!..

                                                 (one of my fave pics of him)

He was potty trained within a week.. which was FANTASTIC.(for those of you who have a puppy, you know its frustrating when they pee and poop on the floor, or in my case, the CARPET urrghh...)...but i loved him , and i wanted to keep him, and prove im responsible to care for him!!.

                                               (awwww snuggleeezzzzzzzz...also one of my faves)


THE MISHAPS!!!.....
ok.. obviously theres gonna be a  few puppy mistakes, not only peeing or pooping in the house... but maybe chewing on things... barking... ect. Heres a list of things he's destroyed...:S:S

1.Lee's xbox crontroler cord...
2.Lee's Iphone cable
3.Pooped in Lee's Car... numerous times.
4. Lee's OTHER Iphone cable.
5.Lee's Hair Clippers.
6.Lee's seat belts in his car.
7.One of MY seatbealts in my new car...yes...the one i JUST got last week...long story.
8.His own dog bed
9.My COMFY pants!!!!!..(i was sooooo sad)
10.Pooped on Lee's leg...hehehheeh...kinda funny.

Notice how its all Lee's stuff.. except my seatbelt..lol.... i think he was out to get him. ...

Even after ALL that.. I could not get rid of him... he's my baby!.

I have gone back and forth wether or not i should get rid of him... i can never bring myself to do it!!... He gives me those puppy eyes, and my heart melts!!...
My favorite thing that he does is.. when hes home alll alone for a bit.. and i come home..
I sit on the couch...( and he waits for me to sit..)... he jumps on my lap, and cries, and hugs me!!... it makes me feel so loved, and i LOVE it every time he does it!!!

Another thing, is when i lay down at night.. he snugglez right beside me, and looks at me with such cuteness!!!...and also.. when im having a bad day. He knows... he comes to me, and hugz me, or snugglez.. and it makes me feel SOOO much better!! I dont know what I would without my TYSON!...<3

10 Things I Can't Live Without!

1.  My Family
2. My Friends
3. My Blackberry
4. My Laptop
5. Eyelash Curler
6. Avon Eyeshadow Palette
7. Pantene Shampoo and Conditioner.
8. Hair Straightner
9. My Flats!
10. Rachael Ray

So these are my 10 things i cant live without! Tell me what yours are!!!

MY FIRST CAR!!!

i have been wanting a car..for SO long.. since i was 16..! I could never offord to buy one. Then i came across this car.(only 200$!!!!).. doesnt really need anything to be fixed.(the guy i bought it from bought a new truck and just needed off the property!).. a little body work.. but thats expected, especially for my first car... I dont expect to get a brand new mazda 6!!! although that would be nice lol... all i need is something good on gas and will get me to where i wanna go!!! :) I am so happy to say....I HAVE A CAR!!... i even went to my brothers today and said.." look at MY car!".. it felt so nice to say that...it made me all giggally..lol. ...

 WELL...here she is!!!! my brand new used  car!!! heheheheh...yes...MY CAR!!!  95 Honda Civic..special edition.....oooooohh hahaha

cooking is nice...being a daddy is better!

For me, personality is everything!..well it's the most important!. Sure i dont want some man buck teeth that goes by the name of Bubba...but in all reality, who does?!?..

 

I would like to take the time and tell you what i think is sexy on a man..inside and out. 

 

EYES: they tell a story. You can really see into someone's soul by looking into their eyes. Bight blue, Bright green are the ones that get me going!!. 

 

SMILE: Honestly, i can not be attracted to someone what so ever. ..and then, they smile..and i melt.

(of course the teeth have to be nice as well.)

Those are basicaly my 2 big physical attractions on a man!...

What i find sexy, is a man, who can cook!!...ahhh i melt if my man can cook(which he can, btw)!!!!! Oh and they have to be good at it too! and creative. Theres just something about a man, cutting up veggies and making pancakes..its just...*sigh..yeah i think you get it. 

A man who is good with their hands, for example..working on their cars, or sports, good at fxing things!!! that is a total bonus..i do not want someone who played video games all day!

 

 

 

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Kirra Dawn Leigh Forget...my boyfriends baby girl!!!<3<3..love u babez. 

 

and the last thing. This is something that i find attractive and so...ahhh..... is a man who is a daddy. My boyfriend is a daddy..and although i love him now...i love him more when he is with his daughter!..I love the way he looks at her, the way he talks to her, and plays with her!..i just love seeing a man so in love ! I love my man, and i love his daughter.. I really do. She makes me so happy all the time! I hope some day i can become her step mommy!!!:D:D

 

 

The new me!

So i have decided to make a life change. Not just quitting smoking, but also getting my weight into a healthy stage.

Since i found out my dad was diabetic..its been a rough road. I do not wanna go down his path. I wanna make myself healthy and be here on this earth for as long as i can. I wanna see my future children graduate, go to college, get married, and have children of their own.

What also hit me was my 11 year old niece, Caitlynn, when she told me she wanted me to quit smoking.. at first i thought, ahh your just a kid, you dont even know whats going on yet...But then i asked her.. "why do you want me to quit smoking?"..and she said, "well, smoking hurts you, it makes your teeth yellow, and makes your skin all gross. It also gives you cancer. I want you to be alive for a long time, i want you to be at my wedding..and well, because I love you." That right there, was the most amazing thing i ever heard. She really hit something, and i told myself..what the hell am i doing to myself. I am killing myself!
I would love to quit cold turkey, but my mind isent in the right stage yet. I will get it there. sooner the better.

Also, my boyfriend is helping me.. at first i was like " you dont smoke, you have no idea how it is to want something so much, you will practically KILL for it"..and " why do you care if i smoke or not?" He said, " I do care! i care alot, i care about you. I want you to live a long time, and smoking will only shorten that. and well because I love you very much, and you mean everything to me"
Am i stupid, do i not know these things?...well i realize it now. I am loved and i love my family so so much, they mean everything to me!! I dont wanna be without them, and i dont want them to be without me!

So, for me, a life change is necessary!. I am proud of myself for finally being strong enough to do this!. I dont want my kids to see me as a mom who isent healthy and smokes, because i would never want that for my kids!
I wanna get married, i wanna have kids. I wanna grow old with the person i love. I wanna die old, asleep in my bed, not in some damn hospital bed with tubes up my nose!! thats not how it should be!. I mean in all reality..as sad as it is. Its almost impossible to die a natural death. Its just so sad.

As of tomorrow , i will begin my new life.. I start by eating a healthy breakfast. Maybe some whole grain toast, and fruit. Then I go for my walk..bring my water...that is important!!. Then snack..maybe a handful of veggies, with water...no dip!!..:P. and supper..a nice salad, with smaller portions of chicken, potatoes or rice... and water to drink. not sure exactly what my meal plans are gonna be like just yet. I still need to sort it out!

I am so excited to see how much will come out of this..although i know it WILL be worth it!!!

Day 4 of cutting down.

Today is day 4 of cutting down. 3 cigarettes a day!... what was I thinking.. I know in my head, yes i can do it!!... but my body isent letting me!. I am going crazy!. the first 2 days, I was perfectly fine... and now..BAM! im a bitch! ugh i hate it. I dont like being this way, then people get mad at me! I crave ALL day, i get the worst headaches, that even with T3 , they still don't go away, i get the munchies,(which isent good cause im on a diet). im irratated... just a whole bunch of things!. Im trying though, i really am.. i havent gone over my limit. But i have to admit..im not ready, well mentally.

If anyone out there can help me, or have any other suggestions on better ways to kick the cravings.. please let me know. I thought my gum was gonna work, but its not...:( it works for maybe 20 minutes, and then the craving is back URGH!!.. as you can tell..yes , i am angry... anyone who smokes out there, i think they can understand what i am going through.

The worst part is that my bf is trying to help me, but he doesnt understand how im feeling, or what im going through. it kinda sucks. I wish i had someone to actually cut down with:P...any takers?!?..lol anywhoo..laters. next blog coming soon!